Christmas Break

I just realized something this morning.

As today is the kids last day of school before Christmas break, I realized that this will be our FIRST CHRISTMAS BREAK as a FAMILY since we were able to retire Chris last March.

It's weird - sometimes it still feels like a dream having him home and that tomorrow he'll wake up and have to go work overtime this weekend, or Sunday night I should be packing his lunch for his 13 hours being away on Monday. Sometimes I still remember those days when he had to work Christmas Eve and I dreaded it.

But it's not a dream that I only play out when I'm sleeping like I used to. Those 2 years of me building this with 3-4 little kids at home while he was at work paid off.

And now as we start Christmas Break, we don't only get to have him home on Christmas Eve night and Christmas Day. We get to take these 2 weeks and build Gingerbread houses TOGETHER, and go Christmas Caroling TOGETHER, to dance around and sing Christmas songs in the house by the Christmas lights...and as I try to type this with tears rolling down my cheeks....

I wish I could go back and tell that overwhelmed Mom who didn't believe in herself and who was so scared to fail and who thought this isn't for people like me, that it's for THOSE successful people who this comes easy for. NOT ME.

I wish I could go back and tell her THAT THIS IS FOR HER! This IS for those that have a dream deep inside, this is for those that WANT SOMETHING MORE, and your STRUGGLES ARE YOUR STORY! This is for those that want SOMETHING DIFFERENT! So CHIN UP! Pull up your big girl panties, wipe off the tears and USE YOUR FEARS to KEEP GOING.

I can't go back and erase my roller coaster journey though.

I CAN tell YOU..

You that's reading this.....

that doubts yourself too - that this is FOR YOU.

This is YOUR TIME to take a chance on your dreams. To quit that job and stay home with your kids. To overcome your struggles and turn them into triumphs. To reclaim your health and strength. To allow your husband to go do something he loves and be home more. To climb out of the OVERWHELM, whatever that is, and create FREEDOM.

I fought for it, during the hardest and move overwhelming stage of my life so far. Because I dreamed day in and day out what freedom of TIME, freedom of FINANCES, freedom from DEPRESSION, freedom from being OVERWEIGHT AND TIRED....

I knew what that would feel like. And for once in my life I took a chance on me, and I took a chance to change everything for my family and ran. And some days I could only walk. And some days I gave up. But I never gave up longer than that day.

I will cherish this Christmas Break and give a virtual hug to that Mom that I was back then and thank her for believing in herself to make this possible. But I will also fight for YOU so that you can have it too if that's what you dream of.

Let me help you get that freedom, whatever it looks like for you. YOU ARE WORTH IT.

XOXO,

Mindy

Freedom

I believe our ability to dream, is our heart's way of telling us what we're meant to do...we wouldn't have that dream, if it didn't connect with us, if we didn't already have what it takes inside to make it happen.

Ever since I was little, I always had a dream to save everyone. I wanted FREEDOM to go wherever I wanted, whenever I wanted. I wanted to save animals that were abused, I wanted to go save all the homeless and starving children, I wanted to make a difference and I knew in order to do that, I would deserve to be financially free. My heart BREAKS when I see someone or something hurting - and somehow, I knew God would help me create a way to be an instrument of CHANGE. I had no clue how to make that happen, and after getting married and being BROKE and having children so quickly - I started to lose myself. I started to lose those passions and I knew I never wanted to work away from home. Being present with my kids is top priority. I wanted them to be able to chase their dreams and expand their talents and take them to explore the world...but that took money, and we didn't have that extra money to provide that. There HAD to be something I could do from home that MATTERED, that I LOVED, that would supplement our income.. But that seemed impossible...almost TOO good to be true.
Yet - I dreamed of that FREEDOM anyway.

Enter Beachbody Coaching....here's where the happy tears come in....
Not only does this:
>Change our HEALTH
>Provide extra accountability for us to reach our goals
>Allow us to be part of an incredible mission that changes lives
>That has not only supplemented our income, but allowed us to retire Chris and do this together full time
>Allows us to go on vacations whenever we want
>Allows us to meet people from all over the world via social media
>Allows us to share our struggles and help others
>Allows us to provide medically for Camden
>Allows us to bond and build a team that is like FAMILY

The list can go on and on - but we get to LIVE our DREAM. I still get to help people...I may not be saving homeless children at the moment, but there are times when I'm talking with women, and I'm saving them. I've been in those dark places like they are, and I get to share how I pulled myself out. I get to BE a BETTER Mom for them because of coaching. And as I pay that forward - families are changing.

This picture may seem so silly and simple - but taking our kids to Disneyland for the first time and to make those memories on the rides, see their faces when they hug characters, go to the ocean - it was a DREAM. I wanted that freedom of TIME to go anywhere for a week and be FREE.

I can't NOT pay this opportunity forward. Everyone deserves that freedom, whatever that may look like to you. I'm opening a FREE COACH SNEAK PEEK today, where you can see what coaching is all about.

Click here to join the group! https://www.facebook.com/groups/1588967651349309/

If you're ready to have freedom, I'm personally mentoring 5 new coaches this next month, and you can apply here: https://unbreakablenation.wufoo.com/forms/coach-application/

Each new day is an opportunity to make the changes that you deserve.<3 Don't ever give up on your dream!

Embrace your Journey

:Vulnerable post:

The last few months, I've resented this line up. This is the behind the scenes. I've been bitter that my body would basically crash and burn after what I went through the year we found out Camden had Spina Bifida and the following year after he came. My body shut down, and has struggled to absorb all the nutrition I WAS/HAVE been taking in. I was frustrated because I had finally gotten in the best shape of my life 2 years ago. I was fitter, leaner and stronger than ever, and I've longed for those days. I've fallen back into negative thinking about my body and feeling insecure as a coach that I'm not there anymore.

Hypothyroid, adrenal fatigue, hormone imbalances and deficiencies are no joke. I've never felt so depleted, exhausted, out of whack and crazy in my entire life. I have to catch my breath after carrying groceries in the house, I forget everything and have had crazy up and down swings. I felt like I was trapped in a body that wasn't mine!

Here's the silver lining ......
This mess is my message -
This test is strengthening my testimony.

The last couple weeks, I've worked really hard through Personal Development and positive affirmations to love me. To love this lesson I've been blessed with. To love the growth process this will take me through. To love me at all shapes, sizes and health stages.

I can do this. I will heal. I will get back there. I will love this lineup that is natural and will get my body level. I will count my blessings. I will take it one day at a time. I will remember that nothing can take my power from me. My spirit is who I am.. Not my body. I'm a fighter. I'm a survivor and I will come out of this stronger than ever.

Nothing can dull your sparkle.

Everything happens for a reason.

I am unbreakable❤

Growth

I remember working 12 hour days, pregnant and rushing from the front desk to the bathroom constantly because my morning sickness was so bad. I remember working late, not getting time off that I requested over holidays, and more than anything...feeling unappreciated, not valued, and thinking I deserve so much better. This isn't how I want to live my life!! I would go above and beyond hoping for a raise, only to hear - it's not in the budget this year. It was a miserable feeling to not have any freedom and to not feel valued.

Fast forward to today. I've found something where I feel valued and recognized constantly. I've found a company who notices and gives back to their coaches. I've found an opportunity where I decide who I work with and when I work, how I work, where I want to work and be my own boss. I've found an opportunity where my income is a direct representation of how many people we get to meet and help change their lifestyle. I've found something where my income growth is up to me, and the sky is the limit. This has blessed our lives in SO many ways!

Numbers are not my thing - I rarely check our growth..but Chris was crunching numbers and realized that each month for the last 6 months, our income has increased by an average of $566 a month. That compound effect is POWERFUL and AMAZING and it's EXCITING to realize what can happen as we put ourselves out there even more and get outside of our comfort zones and work even harder. I've stepped back for a few months and I'm ready to kick it up a notch and really work on ME and become the best coach possible. I want to invest more time in those I work with and dream even bigger and help others create this freedom that they deserve. Things are still just getting started and it gives me BUTTERFLIES to realize what we're truly capable and to work on living UP to that potential!

You deserve the absolute best. You deserve to live life by design and to be in love with every minute of your life. If you're not - have the courage to change!!
I invite you to check out what coaching is all about in a SNEAK PEEK starting TOMORROW on Facebook!

Be your own boss! Create the freedom that you deserve!

Comment below to join or tag a friend that deserves this as well!

Roller Coasters

I grew up really enjoying Amusement Parks. I like the thrill and the scare, partly because I could see the entire ride from beginning to end. I could see the scary parts, and the calm parts and I saw the end where I would be over and I would be okay.

I wish life could be exactly like a roller coaster. We compare trials to them a lot, but today when I was thinking about this, I realized that really, they're only okay because we can SEE it all. In life, we don't have that luxury. We need to cling to faith that our Father in Heaven is in control and He DOES see the beginning to the end, and He has a much greater plan for us than we could ever make happen.

But today, I realized that I have faith in my own life and I'm okay with handing my life over..BUT it has proven much harder for me to have complete faith in turning Baby Camden's life over. We felt inspired to move forward with an Interuterin Surgery which has to be done by November 7th. This surgery drastically improves his quality of life. Instead of allowing fluid flow into his brain for another 19 weeks, this would stop the flow immediately. I felt such peace researching this, which is huge because I've never had a surgery in my life, let alone putting my children through one is the last thing I want. But the outcome of this is SO GREAT that I allowed myself to research it, call hospitals and see what we needed to do.

Well, we sent my records over and got a call today saying that RIGHT NOW, my placenta previa is complete which means the Doctors wouldn't consider me for the surgery. AND, our insurance isn't covering anything.

To say I'm devastated at the moment is an understatement. I'm confused, I'm angry, I feel so completely helpless that it's making it really hard to have faith in what is supposed to happen. What the plan is for Camden. How when I'm trying to do my part to take care of him, that something this great wouldn't be allowed. I'm so at a loss with how to pray..I KNOW that he has an amazing mission to fulfill, and I know that he is ultimately Heavenly Father's son..and that HE will take care of Camden - but I wish I could see the end of this roller coaster. I wish I knew what to do.

So I did the only thing I knew what to do..to try and feel some comfort right now. I listened to a talk by the prophet.

"We were not placed on this earth to walk alone. What an amazing source of power, of strength, and of comfort is available to each of us. He who knows us better than we know ourselves, He who sees the larger picture and who knows the end from the beginning, has assured us that He will be there for us to provide help if we but ask. We have the promise, "pray always, and be believing, and all things shall work together for your good.

As our prayers ascend heavenward, let us not forget the words taught to us by the Savior. When He faced the excruciating agony of Gethsemane and the cross, He prayed to the Father, "Not my will, but thing, be done." Difficult as it may at times be, it is for us, as well, to trust our Heavenly Father to know best how and when and in what manner to provide the help we seek.

I cherish the words of this poem:

I know now by what methods rare,
But this I know, God answers prayer.
I know that He has given His Word,
Which tells me prayer is always heard.
And will be answered, soon or late.
And so I pray and calmly wait.
I know not if the blessing soughtWill come in just the way I thought,
But leave my prayers with Him alone,
Whose will is wiser than my own,
assured that He will grant my quest,
or send some answer far more blest. "

I need to be humble...I need to be patient...and I need to devour myself in prayer and pray to know HIS will and trust that Camden will be OKAY.

Just Another Friday..

Have you ever had a moment in your life where everything changed? Like..you knew the rest of your life was going to be forever different??

I had never had this happen before. Except for moments like getting married and the delivery of my babies.

But this was different...

My day had gone like this...woke up, had breakfast as a family, a coach call with one of my coaches, and then I rushed off for my 20 week ultrasound and doctor appointment. My ultrasound was taking longer than normal, but I loved every minute of seeing that little boy. I waited for my Doctor appointment, but it was getting over an hour wait and I finally called Chris to come get me. This was my 4th, I knew that these monthly appointments lasted 10 minutes and I would be fine waiting another month...so I thought!
 So he picked me up and we went home. It was a beautiful day here in Vegas. We had the windows open and I was SOOO happy. It was just a great day, and I couldn't wait to be playing outside with my family. The day continued on and then around 5pm, my beautiful little family, my husband, my 5 year old daughter Addison, my 3 year old son Mason, and my 2 year old daughter McKinley and I were all on our way to the park. Addison had been asking to go disc golfing again and we thought that was a genius idea.

On the way to the park I listened to my messages on my phone and one of them was from my Doctor and he said this:
"Mindy, I'm sorry we missed you earlier, I'm so sorry about the wait. But I'm looking at your films here and there are some things we need to discuss and I need to have you referred to a specialist."

My heart sank.

Not knowing what anything was, my motherly instincts for this little boy came out and my mind was racing. We discussed what all the options could be while at the park, but there was no way I was present with my family..my mind was just spinning. I called him back and he told me the news:

"There's an opening in your son's spine at the very bottom which is a sign of Spina Bifida. There's also some dilation in his brain in 2 spots, he has club feet and you're showing signs of Placenta Previa."

Again..my heart dropped even lower. I didn't know what to say. I didn't know what I was supposed to feel, or what I was supposed to do. I didn't know how this was caused, how a perfectly normal pregnancy, and my healthiest could all of sudden turn like that.

But through all of these thoughts, I simply told him. "okay..we can only move forward..this is something that is out of our control. I know there's a reason for this and Heavenly Father's WILL, will happen."

We set up the referral and over the next few days I researched what all these unknown terms were and I cried and cried like I never had before. Mainly over how I was going to go through all of this. How we were going to make this work with Chris's job, how he was supposed to take time off for the surgeries and how I was going to go from barely handling my own 3 kids right now, to taking care of 4, one of which will take extra special care. How I was going to keep working from home and and managing everything. I cried for our baby..I cried for the pain he would have to endure, the way he'll be taken right after delivery into surgery..how this wasn't how deliveries were supposed to happen!! I'm supposed to be excited about delivery, and over holding him close for hours after and being able to tell him everything is going to be okay!!

Everyone keeps telling me, everything is going to be okay!! I know that, but I don't know what okay is!!! I don't know if okay is that he'll come out and walk, with no brain damage or if he'll have extensive brain damage and not walk. I don't know if he'll be a rare percentage that are meant to have a short time on earth or not.
I don't know any of this. I DO know that whatever happens, it's going to be okay - I know that.

I just wish I knew the outcome now.
I wish I could take his pain away.
I wish that I had a crystal ball and could see the future.

But you know what??
Through this all, I have felt arms wrapped around me from my Savior and from my Father in Heaven. This is His child. He has entrusted this amazing little angel into our lives for a reason. To teach us. To strengthen us. And everything WILL be okay..because our Father in Heaven is the one in charge and that brings me more comfort than anything a Doctor will tell me. I know that we'll be guided, we'll be comforted to know what path to take with his care. I know that he will be born the way he is supposed to be to live out this special mission he has before him. I know that I am extremely blessed to have such a special spirit growing inside of me and that bond I feel with him is unlike anything I've felt before.

We are lucky.
We will be taken care of.
And even though I feel so inadequate, and I feel like I'm not grown up enough yet to even have 4 kids - that my weaknesses will be made up for. I do have faith. I have my moments where I feel strong, and I have my moments where I cry out for help. But I have faith and I believe in Eternal families and I believe in Heavenly Father knowing the start from the end with our lives. It's all going to be okay. I don't know how...but it will be.


Our little Angel