The last few months, I've resented this line up. This is the behind the scenes. I've been bitter that my body would basically crash and burn after what I went through the year we found out Camden had Spina Bifida and the following year after he came. My body shut down, and has struggled to absorb all the nutrition I WAS/HAVE been taking in. I was frustrated because I had finally gotten in the best shape of my life 2 years ago. I was fitter, leaner and stronger than ever, and I've longed for those days. I've fallen back into negative thinking about my body and feeling insecure as a coach that I'm not there anymore.
Hypothyroid, adrenal fatigue, hormone imbalances and deficiencies are no joke. I've never felt so depleted, exhausted, out of whack and crazy in my entire life. I have to catch my breath after carrying groceries in the house, I forget everything and have had crazy up and down swings. I felt like I was trapped in a body that wasn't mine!
Here's the silver lining ......
This mess is my message -
This test is strengthening my testimony.
The last couple weeks, I've worked really hard through Personal Development and positive affirmations to love me. To love this lesson I've been blessed with. To love the growth process this will take me through. To love me at all shapes, sizes and health stages.
I can do this. I will heal. I will get back there. I will love this lineup that is natural and will get my body level. I will count my blessings. I will take it one day at a time. I will remember that nothing can take my power from me. My spirit is who I am.. Not my body. I'm a fighter. I'm a survivor and I will come out of this stronger than ever.
Nothing can dull your sparkle.
Everything happens for a reason.
I am unbreakable❤
